Grace’s Story Part 1 How Adoption Choose us.
I was making lunch for Kaylee when she said, “Mom when we get a baby in a few weeks i’m going to be the best big sister ever!” I was completely caught off guard and tried to explain that babies don’t come in just a few weeks. I went on to explain even if mom were to get pregnant we wouldn’t know for a while. She just ignored me and went back to her little life.
As I was getting into bed that night I receive a text it said “ Would you be interested in adoption? We know a girl who is pregnant and is wanting to place the baby for adoption. Is that an option for you?”
My heart skipped a beat and I tapped Mitch on the shoulder, “listen to this,” i said. Then, as you can imagine, we had quite the conversation. Would we? Could we? Is this real?
We both decided there was no way we could make this big of a decision right now. So we prayed together. We asked our Heavenly Father to give us guidance and to help us know how to handle this situation. We prayed for help to be able to have a clear mind and be able to make such a big decision in a short amount of time. Then as we finished the prayer we both felt we needed to make some phone calls. Mitch called his dad and I called in response to the text. I found out that the baby was due in a little over a week. In my mind there was no way this was going to happen. There was so many things that could go wrong. I had heard horror stories about these kinds of things!
I told her we were “interested” and to give them our number. As I got off the phone I listened to Mitch and his dad. He was so excited. My heart broke a little. I had just gotten to a place where I felt happy and content with our little family. I had just given up on fertility treatments. I had just turned my life over to the lord and I was at peace. At this moment, I felt back in the thick of it all. Adoption was not in my plan. I started to go to a place of fear, I started thinking- do I really want to give up on my body? We could do a lot of fertility treatments for the cost of adoption. What if they don’t like us? What if they are lying to us? My fight or flight pointed straight to FLIGHT!
I think I cried most of the next day. I was scared of so many unknowns. We didn’t hear anything for days so I figured it was over and nothing was going to come of it.
At church on Sunday the lady who had contacted us found me. She told me the baby had come early. She showed me a picture of the most beautiful little baby girl. Later that day she sent me a text saying that they wanted to meet with us.
All of us were in shock! We thought for sure it was over. We headed to my family’s for blessings and awaited a text to see when they wanted to meet.
TO BE CONTINUED..