How we Made the decision to Adopt
Grace’s Story Part 2
Sunday came and went with still no word. When I woke up Monday morning I didn’t know what to think. At 1pm I received a text saying they had had a hard night Sunday and would like to set up a meeting for later that night. At this point I was very skeptical I was very hesitant to even meet with them. Mitch was very comforting and i appreciated his logical approach in this situation. We decided to meet up with them at a church later that night. I was stressed! I felt like I was going to throw up… the last few days had been filled with online research and calling some great resources and asking questions like, “Is it even possible to just adopt a baby?” “How would we handle a meeting?” “What do we say and what shouldn’t we say?” We had no lawyer, no agency, and very limited information on adoption, or this situation.
So we headed to the church to find out more.
Mitch and I were sitting at a church waiting to talk to a birthmother we had never met about adopting her baby. I am usually easy to talk to and have plenty to say. however, that day the words seemed hard to find. I was so worried and had no clue what to say or what was even appropriate.
When they arrived I saw a birthmother shivering wrapped up in a blanket looking just as scared as I felt. She had just been released the night before. We made introductions and then her boyfriend spoke telling us a little about what they had been going through and why they were no longer using the adoption agency that they had been working with. They told us about the hard things our birthmother has had to endure in her life. They were both in tears, they felt very hurt and disrespected. I just sat and listened and Mitch did most of the talking. Then she asked me some questions about where and when do I work? Do I like immunizations? What foods will I be feeding this baby. Etc
She expressed that she would like to get the baby placed as soon as possible and that she had already separated her self from the baby. It was very comforting to me to have her ask me about how I planned to have this little one fit in our home. Because that is really what it is all about! This sweet spirit needed a home. Mitch and I left that meeting with a lot of peace. We both left knowing we needed to make some decisions. We needed to decide if this was right for us and if we could and wanted to adopt. She had to decide if we were right for her little girl.
The next 24 hours were HARD! I have struggled with infertility for a long time. Enough time to build up some big walls. As I had searched the scriptures Monday night I felt great peace about adoption and even came up with a name. Then Tuesday as we talked about the good and the hard things that can come from adoption I felt like it was a good thing for us to do. So me and Mitch headed to the temple;(To learn more about temples click Here) we had made the decision and were just looking for confirmation from the lord that this was right. As I sat in the temple I thought that I had made my decision and was ready for a major confirmation…nothing came. I started to think maybe that was my answer. So we meet up after and we started talking and I told Mitch I didn’t really get an answer… so was it a no?
Mitch’s face dropped, he had received a resounding and undeniable YES! So what now? We were both upset and didn’t know what to do. We came home and I started to doubt more and I was in a place of complete fear. Mitch was probably the most upset I have ever seen him.
Side Note I had a plane ticket to Mexico for the next morning at 4 am. So I was having to decide whether to stay home and get a baby or go to Mexico in the morning! AGH!!
We had an appointment with Janette, an amazing energy worker (coincidence? I think not) as we sat in her office both of us were in a really bad place. But as we started talking the spirit came into that room and helped soften my heart. At one point she asked me to close my eyes and picture Christ there with that sweet spirit and asked me to play out what he was doing in my mind. I pictured Christ holding grace in one arm and reaching out to me with the other and saying, “Come, I will help you. Here is this beautiful gift I will be with you to help you through.” That is when I knew she was mine. She asked me, “Do you think it matters how she gets to you? Do you think heavenly father could send her to you through someone else?”
And that is when it I realized that he can. That Grace was meant for our family and that it doesn’t matter how she comes to me. At that moment I realized that this was heavenly father’s way of helping us grow our family and that I could handle all of the stress and whatever was to come.
Because I would not be alone he will be there with outstretched arms helping me through. We left that office on top of the world. We had been receiving texts from the Birthmother that they wanted to talk to us and to get things going so we hurried and called them and told them the good news, we were ready to do this!!
TO BE CONTINUED…….
For Part 1 click here..