Post Traumatic Stress Disorder: PTSD is a disorder that develops in some people who have experienced a shocking, scary, or a dangerous event. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) can be described as a mental health condition that’s triggered by a trauma. Whether experiencing it or seeing it. The symptoms include flashbacks, nightmares, severe anxiety, depression and confusion.
As a 15 year old freshman girl I was at school on April 20, 1999 at Columbine High School in Littleton, Colorado when two students opened fire and killed 12 students, one teacher, wounded dozens and then killed themselves.
This was my trauma.
For years I didn’t realize that what I was experiencing was PTSD. But I had all the symptoms.
Flashbacks. Anxiety. Depression. Confusion. Nightmares.
I used to think the only way someone could have PTSD was to have been a soldier at war. But now I know PTSD is so common and it can happen to anyone who has experienced a trauma.
Something scary. Something shocking.
Although I was not injured at the school that day I did hear gun shots.
I hid, I felt fear. I was confused, I was lost, I was angry. I felt as if I lost all control of my life. I felt anxiety.
Going through infertility can bring up all those feelings, too. I know they have for me.